aithusathesherlockedmerlinbaby:
Forget the phone call, forget the fall, forget John alone at Baker Street.
This is what broke me.
This change in demeanour, the nod of “get yourself into check, soldier on” and the military turn, is John: destroyed.
This is whitewashed John, boring John, bored John…John Before Sherlock.
Except now it’s John After Sherlock, and he knows exactly what (who) he is missing.
someone to understand me.
Not to mention his limp, his fucking limp
The limp only Sherlock saw through
The limp only Sherlock managed to get rid of
The limp John no longer needed when Sherlock was there
The limp that he takes on once more because his best friend isn’t there anymore
Sherlock kept him steady, and now that he’s gone there isn’t anything left for John to lean on
this smashed my heart into pieces, knowing he places a lid on everything and just… falls back into military routine,...
Fandom. What you do to me, fandom???
well FRAK me….. please, just kill me…..
#This broke me #Not that I wasn’t a sobbing wreck by the time this happened #But it marked the loss of a continuing will...
THIS. If I’m not crying before this exact moment will cause me to break down, finally someone else who understands this…
I was screaming the whole time Sherlock jumped then John does this about-face- I was quiet for a few seconds. T___T